Akhir2 ini gue merasa... hidup gue chaos dan nggak berkonsep. Bahkan tidak menulis apapun kecuali blog ini dan comment2 di facebook ataupun cuma ngewall aja...Nggak ada yang salah si... cuma koq gue sekarang aga jauh dari kegiatan produktif dan mulai paranoid.
hahaha... ya hanya sedikit curhat, dari seseorang yang membutuhkan magical inspiration buat hidup dan tulisannya hehehe...
Apalagi mendengar beberapa pengalaman teman yang bekerja... kok mereka udah sedikit kehilangan waktu untuk dirinya... Jujur gue takut! Mungkin gue memang orang yang (terlalu) menjunjung tinggi kebutuhan akan waktu untuk diri sendiri... gue menikmati itu. Yah... tapi seharusnya hal itu tidak terlalu jadi masalah karena toh dengan bekerja ataupun punya kesibukan lebih dari sebelumnya, bukan berarti waktu bersama diri sendiri tereliminasi.
Yap... gue mencoba untuk menata diri dan memanfaatkan waktu sebaik2nya...
Sebagai penutup... gue baru2 ini baca puisinya Oscar Wilde yang berjudul Roses and Rue (dan mencoba mencernanya hehehe) ini cuplikannya:
You have only wasted your life
When I rushed through the garden gate
It was too late
Could we live it over again.
were it worth the pain,
Could the passionate past that is fled
Call Back its dead
Well, if my heart must break,
Dear love, for your sake,
it will break in music, I know
Poets hearts break so.
But strange that I was not told
That the brain can hold
In a tiny ivory cell
God's heaven and hell
10/28/2008
Tune In for a Great Lyrics
According to Manda's, recently i'm chanelling Jem album and... I love her two songs, And So I Pray and You Will Make It. That songs are really good and off course great lyrics...
And So I Pray
Storm is brewing in theair tonight
So many pressures on my mind
Want to escape just wanna run away
But it's not an option
I have to stay
And so I pray
I wish that all these things would go away
To disappear if only for a day
Know I can't go but I don'twanna stay
Can't believe the irony
The thing I wanted is killing me
All the happy smiles I miss
Didn't think it would be like this
You Will Make It
one day sunlight hits a photograph, and it makes you smile
the memories dance around you now, and they make you smile
you're not alone you'll never *be*
just like the stars they oversee they whisper to you,
you’re still, you’re still , you’re still you’re still alive
Its okay to be sad, stumble and fall... but dont forget to stand up one more time...
deste
And So I Pray
Storm is brewing in theair tonight
So many pressures on my mind
Want to escape just wanna run away
But it's not an option
I have to stay
And so I pray
I wish that all these things would go away
To disappear if only for a day
Know I can't go but I don'twanna stay
Can't believe the irony
The thing I wanted is killing me
All the happy smiles I miss
Didn't think it would be like this
You Will Make It
one day sunlight hits a photograph, and it makes you smile
the memories dance around you now, and they make you smile
you're not alone you'll never *be*
just like the stars they oversee they whisper to you,
you’re still, you’re still , you’re still you’re still alive
Its okay to be sad, stumble and fall... but dont forget to stand up one more time...
deste
yup..i ended up here writing on our blog
( which is suppose doin my thesis at the moment ;) )
js a bit break tho, 2 relieve my tons of burdens...
dis song kinda helps me after my "break-up-for-good" moment
somehow..it could b use for all the broken hearted..
to breathe easier
to face life even braver
to know that u could b a single fighter
while the one u love is not stand there
Better In Time
Leona Lewis
It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going
Coming
Thought I heard a knock(Whose there, No one?)
Thinking that (I deserve it)
Now I have realised
That I really didn't know.
If you didn't notice
You mean everything (quickly I'm learning)
To love again (all I know is)
I'm be OK.
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's going to hurt when it heals too
Oh yeah (It'll All get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve too
Oooh(It'll all get better in time)
I could of turned on the TV
Without something that would remind me
Was it all that easy?
To just put us out your feeling
If I’m dreaming
Don't want to let it (hurt my feelings)
But that's the past (I believe it)
And I know that, time will heal it
If you didn't notice
Well you mean everything (quickly I’m learning)
Oooh turn up again (All I know is)
I'm be ok
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh yeah(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve too (It'll all get better in time)
Since there's no more you and me
This time I let you go so I can be free
And Live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I will be fine without you
Yes I Will
_manda_
( which is suppose doin my thesis at the moment ;) )
js a bit break tho, 2 relieve my tons of burdens...
dis song kinda helps me after my "break-up-for-good" moment
somehow..it could b use for all the broken hearted..
to breathe easier
to face life even braver
to know that u could b a single fighter
while the one u love is not stand there
Better In Time
Leona Lewis
It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going
Coming
Thought I heard a knock(Whose there, No one?)
Thinking that (I deserve it)
Now I have realised
That I really didn't know.
If you didn't notice
You mean everything (quickly I'm learning)
To love again (all I know is)
I'm be OK.
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's going to hurt when it heals too
Oh yeah (It'll All get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve too
Oooh(It'll all get better in time)
I could of turned on the TV
Without something that would remind me
Was it all that easy?
To just put us out your feeling
If I’m dreaming
Don't want to let it (hurt my feelings)
But that's the past (I believe it)
And I know that, time will heal it
If you didn't notice
Well you mean everything (quickly I’m learning)
Oooh turn up again (All I know is)
I'm be ok
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh yeah(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve too (It'll all get better in time)
Since there's no more you and me
This time I let you go so I can be free
And Live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I will be fine without you
Yes I Will
10/27/2008
Pasar Malam itu Bernama Hidup
Perjalanan pulang dari Bandung ke Jakarta kemarin menjadi perjalanan yang penuh perenungan buatku. Layaknya pasar malam, saat itu aku harus berkemas dan beranjak pergi dari sebuah kota yang sudah pantas kusebut rumah selama 4 tahun. Menyongsong sebuah kehidupan lain yang telah menanti...
Layaknya pasar malam... Hidup harus kembali ditata, harus kembali berputar (walau sesungguhnya memang tak pernah berhenti).
Layaknya pasar malam... awal pertama menginjakkan kaki di Bandung, yang ada hanyalah keinginan untuk kembali ke masa2 SMA...kembali ke kenyamanan yang telah kurasakan sebelumnya. Namun hidup memang aneh dan penuh ironi. Kini, sulit melepas kenangan yang telah terbentuk di Bandung...Sulit melepaskan sesuatu yang pada awalnya sulit kita terima.
Layaknya pasar malam... hidupku di Bandung tidak kemudian hanyalah sekumpulan potret kegembiraan dan gura2 semata. Namun sebentuk proses getir dan bahagia, susah dan senang yang kemudian bermuara pada sebuah pendewasaan. Layaknya pasar malam, ada kalanya ramai pengunjung, ada kalanya sepi bagai tak bernyawa.
Lalu akankah pasar malam ini akan berhenti berdenyut? Tidak. Karena kita akan berpetualang, menjelajah negeri antah berantah, bertemu dengan sejuta peristiwa lain...
Jika perubahan ini masih membuat hati terasa kelu dan kehilangan gairah... Mari kita kenang lagi masa2 awal nan sulit beradaptasi dengan kota bernama Bandung dulu. Pada akhirnya, ketika kita tidak berhenti berjuang... yang tersisa adalah kegembiraan dan rasa rindu.
Bagiku, hidup bagai pasar malam... yang tak pernah berhenti berputar dan berpetualang!
Deste
untuk para sahabatku (yang sedang bermain komedi putar di dalam pasar malam mereka masing2)
Layaknya pasar malam... Hidup harus kembali ditata, harus kembali berputar (walau sesungguhnya memang tak pernah berhenti).
Layaknya pasar malam... awal pertama menginjakkan kaki di Bandung, yang ada hanyalah keinginan untuk kembali ke masa2 SMA...kembali ke kenyamanan yang telah kurasakan sebelumnya. Namun hidup memang aneh dan penuh ironi. Kini, sulit melepas kenangan yang telah terbentuk di Bandung...Sulit melepaskan sesuatu yang pada awalnya sulit kita terima.
Layaknya pasar malam... hidupku di Bandung tidak kemudian hanyalah sekumpulan potret kegembiraan dan gura2 semata. Namun sebentuk proses getir dan bahagia, susah dan senang yang kemudian bermuara pada sebuah pendewasaan. Layaknya pasar malam, ada kalanya ramai pengunjung, ada kalanya sepi bagai tak bernyawa.
Lalu akankah pasar malam ini akan berhenti berdenyut? Tidak. Karena kita akan berpetualang, menjelajah negeri antah berantah, bertemu dengan sejuta peristiwa lain...
Jika perubahan ini masih membuat hati terasa kelu dan kehilangan gairah... Mari kita kenang lagi masa2 awal nan sulit beradaptasi dengan kota bernama Bandung dulu. Pada akhirnya, ketika kita tidak berhenti berjuang... yang tersisa adalah kegembiraan dan rasa rindu.
Bagiku, hidup bagai pasar malam... yang tak pernah berhenti berputar dan berpetualang!
Deste
untuk para sahabatku (yang sedang bermain komedi putar di dalam pasar malam mereka masing2)
10/22/2008
Happy for Heidy, Cynthia, and Cita
"Happiness only real when shared..."
dan kata2 dari Christopher McCandless itu benar adanya... Akhir2 ini gue mendapat kabar2 bahagia dari teman2ku... sangat menyenangkan rasanya...
Selamat buat Heidy yang akhirnya oh akhirnya menemukan pekerjaan yang cocok, sesuai jati dirinya! Assistant Fashion Stylist di majalah ternama... hell yeah!
Kata2 ini bener banget ya Di:
"When you want something in life, you just gotta reach out and grab it."
Lalu baru aja aku juga mendapat kabar bahagia dari Cynthia... She will get... hmmm biar Cynthia deh yang bilang ke kalian... Yang jelas, dia juga mendapat berita klo jenis kelamin bayinya... sesuai yang ia inginkan... (The clue is: Terapi lagu Lisa Ono berhasil donk ya Cyn?). I really happy for her!
Buat Cita... selamat akhirnya dapet kerja juga di negeri Singa itu... Elo pasti bisa deh cit!
Beberapa minggu terakhir ini gue sempet termehek2 nonton One Tree Hill Season 5... Abis problematika yang dihadapi agak2 mirip ma qta. Dan di salah satu episodenya ada kata2 yang bagus banget...
Begini kira2 dialog mereka:
Peyton: Make a wish and place it in your heart. Anything you want, everything you want.
Lucas: Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle is gonna come from, the next smile, the next wish come true.
Peyton: But if you believe that it's right around the corner, and you open your heart and mind to possibility of it, to the certainty of it.
Brooke: You just might get the thing you're wishing for.
Nathan: The world is full of magic. You just have to believe in it. So make your wish. Do you have it?
Haley: Good. Now believe in it, with all your heart...
Nah... gue rasa Heidy, Cynthia, dan Cita lagi ngangguk2 setuju. Mereka berani berharap (dan berusaha tentunya)... Dan... the world is full of magic... Qta ngga pernah tau kan? Bahkan walaupun qta belum mendapat yang qta inginkan... Terus berjuang! Buat yang sudah mendapatkan apa yang diinginkan... Berjuang lagi dan jangan mudah puas!
Jalan masih panjang!
"The core of mans' spirit comes from new experiences"
Selamat berpetualang... dalam dunia kerja... dalam dunia rumah tangga... dalam pengerjaan skripsi... dan dalam menikmati masa2 menganggur! hahaha...
Deste
dan kata2 dari Christopher McCandless itu benar adanya... Akhir2 ini gue mendapat kabar2 bahagia dari teman2ku... sangat menyenangkan rasanya...
Selamat buat Heidy yang akhirnya oh akhirnya menemukan pekerjaan yang cocok, sesuai jati dirinya! Assistant Fashion Stylist di majalah ternama... hell yeah!
Kata2 ini bener banget ya Di:
"When you want something in life, you just gotta reach out and grab it."
Lalu baru aja aku juga mendapat kabar bahagia dari Cynthia... She will get... hmmm biar Cynthia deh yang bilang ke kalian... Yang jelas, dia juga mendapat berita klo jenis kelamin bayinya... sesuai yang ia inginkan... (The clue is: Terapi lagu Lisa Ono berhasil donk ya Cyn?). I really happy for her!
Buat Cita... selamat akhirnya dapet kerja juga di negeri Singa itu... Elo pasti bisa deh cit!
Beberapa minggu terakhir ini gue sempet termehek2 nonton One Tree Hill Season 5... Abis problematika yang dihadapi agak2 mirip ma qta. Dan di salah satu episodenya ada kata2 yang bagus banget...
Begini kira2 dialog mereka:
Peyton: Make a wish and place it in your heart. Anything you want, everything you want.
Lucas: Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle is gonna come from, the next smile, the next wish come true.
Peyton: But if you believe that it's right around the corner, and you open your heart and mind to possibility of it, to the certainty of it.
Brooke: You just might get the thing you're wishing for.
Nathan: The world is full of magic. You just have to believe in it. So make your wish. Do you have it?
Haley: Good. Now believe in it, with all your heart...
Nah... gue rasa Heidy, Cynthia, dan Cita lagi ngangguk2 setuju. Mereka berani berharap (dan berusaha tentunya)... Dan... the world is full of magic... Qta ngga pernah tau kan? Bahkan walaupun qta belum mendapat yang qta inginkan... Terus berjuang! Buat yang sudah mendapatkan apa yang diinginkan... Berjuang lagi dan jangan mudah puas!
Jalan masih panjang!
"The core of mans' spirit comes from new experiences"
Selamat berpetualang... dalam dunia kerja... dalam dunia rumah tangga... dalam pengerjaan skripsi... dan dalam menikmati masa2 menganggur! hahaha...
Deste
10/20/2008
Love is Just A Game
Huh...
Sedang sinis memandang cinta eh semakin sinis aja setelah mendengarkan lagu Love's A Game milik The Magic Numbers...
Love is just a game
Broken all the same
And I will get over you
Love is just a lie
Happens all the time
Swear I know this much is true
Semoga saya cepat sembuh!
Deste
Sedang sinis memandang cinta eh semakin sinis aja setelah mendengarkan lagu Love's A Game milik The Magic Numbers...
Love is just a game
Broken all the same
And I will get over you
Love is just a lie
Happens all the time
Swear I know this much is true
Semoga saya cepat sembuh!
Deste
A Tribute to Fashion-Maverick
BEWARE!
We started today with be a subject for some kind of physiological test at Atmajaya. Weeewww what a tired day... Please pay attention with our outfit today!
Today's outfit:
Red shirt: Pasar Gedebage Rp 10.000 (about 1$)
Corduroy Jeans: Pasar Gedebage Rp 20.00o (about 2$)
Flats: A gift from someone I Love (*ouch*) -> gossip material
Postman Bag: Pasar Gedebage Rp 45.000 (about 5$)
Grey Shirt: Pasar Baru Rp 5000 (less than 1$)
Jeans: Attic Rp 90.000 (9$)
Necklace: Souvenir from Myanmar
Yellow Wedges: Charles & Keith
Brown bag: Tajur
Posted by Pashion Maperick!
Palsunya asli! hehehe... Gimana Di? uda mirip blog fashion lo belum?
Kami persembahkan hanya untukmu! hahaha
DesteMonik
We started today with be a subject for some kind of physiological test at Atmajaya. Weeewww what a tired day... Please pay attention with our outfit today!
Today's outfit:
Red shirt: Pasar Gedebage Rp 10.000 (about 1$)
Corduroy Jeans: Pasar Gedebage Rp 20.00o (about 2$)
Flats: A gift from someone I Love (*ouch*) -> gossip material
Postman Bag: Pasar Gedebage Rp 45.000 (about 5$)
Grey Shirt: Pasar Baru Rp 5000 (less than 1$)
Jeans: Attic Rp 90.000 (9$)
Necklace: Souvenir from Myanmar
Yellow Wedges: Charles & Keith
Brown bag: Tajur
Posted by Pashion Maperick!
Palsunya asli! hehehe... Gimana Di? uda mirip blog fashion lo belum?
Kami persembahkan hanya untukmu! hahaha
DesteMonik
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